"I Will Praise you in this Storm"

I haven't written a blog in a LONG time and I think I'm ready to start back up. Paislyn is doing amazing since her last surgery and I thank God everyday for her health! She is incredible; she is so smart, beautiful, sassy, inspiring, lovable, and independent. I thank God for giving her each of those traits because it makes Paislyn exactly who God made her to be. I am currently experiencing a "storm" in my life. Sometimes I catch myself saying. "Why me God?", but I know that God knew about this storm in my life long before it happened. He has prepared me to face it head on and live each day knowing God holds my tomorrow in his hands. It's hard when going through a time in your life when you feel that you have no control. I find myself crying, happy, sad , and excited all at the same time for the path I am on. I am so thankful that I serve a God that I know loves me for me and is there for me no matter what. On top of the "storm" I am facing, I received a phone call Friday scheduling Paislyn's Fontan ( her last open heart surgery).  I have to admit.... Friday was rough. I sat at my desk at work and cried and cried for a few minutes, when a friend came over, put her hand on my shoulder and asked if she could pray for me. I can't tell you what that meant to me. It's moments like these where life can get overwhelming, but I wiped my tears, said a prayer and told God that I thank him for being in complete control of this situation and my life. I Trust him in all circumstances and have faith he will see us through this "storm".  Tentatively Paislyns last open heart surgery will be mid April of this year. I ask that you please keep her and us in your prayers and pray that God shows his face at that hospital and protects my precious little girl through this last surgery. This last surgery will be a lot harder for many reasons, but I'm trusting God has it all under control. I can not worry about Tomorrow and just need to find peace in today. She is such a strong little girl and has done AMAZING through her surgeries and I know she will do just as well through this one. I am so thankful for everyone in my life who has loved and supported us through all of Paislyn's journey and am so grateful for each and everyone of you. I have had such incredible people reach out to me during this time in my life. A friend that I haven't even met has shown me so much love over the last couple months. Our babies are both heart babies and God had a reason to bring us into each other lives. They recently sent Paislyn an adorable Princess barbie and me the most beautiful and meaningful necklace to represent Paislyn's heart. I can't tell you Ashly and Hunter what that has meant to me in my life right now! Paislyn and I are incredibly lucky to have so many family and friends who love us! God is good and I will continue to put all of my faith and trust in him and him alone. My prayer is that he continues to watch over my sweet baby girl and hold her through this last surgery when I am not able. He has performed miracles before in Paislyn's life and I know he is going to do it again. Moments when I start to feel sad I take comfort in knowing God is my comfort and there are so many other people in the world who have it a lot harder than me! I am thankful and grateful for the life God has given me! Lord, I will Praise YOU in this STORM!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xGPS8sa-bRQ Praise you in this Storm!

^" Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God."            Philippians 4:6

Paislyn Supporting Congenital Heart Disease Awareness!

My little DIVA

Mommy's Beautiful Necklace!

Me and My beautiful girl!

Paislyn Nicole!

I Love this little girl more than you know!

My beautiful ring My Gma Kathi and Gpa Bob got for me! Represents mommy and Pay's hearts!